I'm curious about why I'm having such a relatively tough time remembering lines and lyrics this term. And learning them, to an extent. I feel totally useless when I go to learn lines-- nothing sticks and I feel very foggy when I do so.
I feel tired ALL THE TIME but especially after 7pm, when I (finally) have time to learn and review lines. It makes it all more difficult too. But maybe that's what I mean by "foggy?" Like when you yawn a dozen times in a row because your poor brain just needs a ton of oxygen all of a sudden. But I can't even get myself to yawn a dozen times-- I just slowly melt into a puddle of half-lines and paraphrases, like a little match girl falling asleep in a snowbank. It's warm somehow, filled with an oddly comforting sense of complacent resignation...
Except of course I simply NEED to retain all of this, as well as find time for reading, research, practicing, doing laundry, cleaning my toilets... You know, all the other things in life that seem to fall away by accident because time flies faster than I can keep up.
It makes my brain hurt.
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